THINK BEFORE U SPEAK
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cinnamon-creme-deactivated20120 asked:
lex, I just want to let you know that if you ever want to talk or you ever need someone to listen, I'm right here.
Stay strong girl :) I'll be praying for you <3
thanks sash =) that means alot <3 hope ur doing good over there, miss u and love u <3
today i broke down during chapel because our speaker talked about things we teens go through every day. she had us stand up if we have gone through or know someone who has been abused, cutter, etc. i stood up for all the of them and two i stood up is becaus i went through them. i felt exposed when i stood cuz i know ppl know my past and i could feel some stares but i just felt so exposed..then she had us pair up with someone we dont talk to and we were suppose to tell that person what we struggle with and i answered believing im forgiven and then say a phrase if u really knew me…you would know i…and i said if u really knew me you would know i cry every night cuz of my gma death but really i wanted to say is i fight everyday to stay alive. but i didnt. but i just broke down and i had to run to the bathroom and one of my friends who is a mentor for me followed me and let me just cry and she prayed for me. which is exactly what i needed. im still not done crying. im holdin it in. im on the verge of tears writing this. it just hurts so much. i hurt so much…when will it stop….. =’(
my advice to u who struggle out there and feel like u have no one. i am here to tell u do have someone. someone who knows ur every thought.He knows your future. Turn to Him and He will come. Dont hide your tears anymore. Dont hold everything in because one day it will be to much and u just break down for hours. I know its hard but trust me HE will help u get through it. He doesnt make us go through anything we cant handle. Open up to someone. u may think they dont understand but HE will speak through them so they can help u. Let everything go. Let it out. You will feel better when u do. trust me.
have any questions or need advice on anything, u can leave something in my ask box. U can trust me.
- April 15
- , 2011
I just want to be held forever. Because when I’m in your arms, I finally feel complete. But when I’m not in your arms, I feel broken all over again…I feel the wounds come back up, I feel the tears roll down my cheeks, I feel the pain everyone caused me. For once I just want to feel safe and complete. Just for once, that’s all I ask…
- March 29
- , 2011
the night before last, the night of my birthday, i cut for the first time in 2 months. ive been cutting nonstop for 3 years, and i was so proud. but i slipped, and the next day, i had to get 10 stitches. it was the first time in my life i had to get them. but my mother say with me, and my…
